full moon
cool air
in maine dooryard
dog foursquare
pees by leaf pile
the boys together
I've never found
God anywhere
I am just here
I don't know God
don't know (as Doris
says) is most intimate
full moon
cool air
in maine dooryard
dog foursquare
pees by leaf pile
the boys together
I've never found
God anywhere
I am just here
I don't know God
don't know (as Doris
says) is most intimate
Sometimes it’s silly
carnivals of opinion
elephant droppings
brooms sweep the poop right away
wagons cart up to news desks
We live in the prison of our enclosed mind. We are our own jailers. We set the sentence, the emotions, and the conditions of our incarceration.
No one has put us there. We walk in and lock the door. We sit and stew. We plead guilty.
Tonight is a good night. To release the prisoner we have only to shut up, do not confess, step away from the scene and conditions of the crime we commit against ourself, and go home.
We imprison ourselves.
Come clean.
Don’t rat yourself out.
Don’t be a patsy.
Rehabilitate yourself.
Get out of jail, free.
Heather Cox Richardson on the background of Earth Day.
I look out window and there it is. Earth! What a joy!
I’ll add my ashes to this beautiful home. This body knows where it belongs.
Last evening at practice we read “Water the earth with the tears of your joy”: An Earth Day Reflection from 2020 by Jim Friedrich. Wonderful piece. (Be sure to watch the 2.5 minute YouTube piece at end.)
That piece and this poem by Wendell Berry capped an intimate meditation into our incorporative participation with what is going on with Earth.
Enriching the Earth
To enrich the earth I have sowed clover and grass
to grow and die. I have plowed in the seeds
of winter grains and various legumes,
their growth to be plowed in to enrich the earth.
I have stirred into the ground the offal
and the decay of the growth of past seasons
and so mended the earth and made its yield increase.
All this serves the dark. Against the shadow
of veiled possibility my workdays stand
in a most asking light. I am slowly falling
into the fund of things. And yet to serve the earth,
not knowing what I serve, gives a wideness
and a delight to the air, and my days
do not wholly pass. It is the mind's service,
for when the will fails so do the hands
and one lives at the expense of life.
After death, willing or not, the body serves,
entering the earth. And so what was heaviest
and most mute is at last raised up into song.
-- from The Collected Poems of Wendell Berry, 1957-1982, by Wendell Berry |
Earth
Is where
God has gone
Disappearing
Until you and I
Become human
We don’t need
To find God
We need
To find out
what being
human means
Thus
Reappearing
God
Poetry as door to the invisible.
Here and Now
Stephen Dunn 1939 –2021
for Barbara
There are words
I've had to save myself from,
like My Lord and Blessed Mother,
words I said and never meant,
though I admit a part of me misses
the ornamental stateliness
of High Mass, that smell
of incense. Heaven did exist,
I discovered, but was reciprocal
and momentary, like lust
felt at exactly the same time—
two mortals, say, on a resilient bed,
making a small case for themselves.
You and I became the words
I'd say before I'd lay me down to sleep,
and again when I'd wake—wishful
words, no belief in them yet.
It seemed you'd been put on earth
to distract me
from what was doctrinal and dry.
Electricity may start things,
but if they're to last
I've come to understand
a steady, low-voltage hum
of affection
must be arrived at. How else to offset
the occasional slide
into neglect and ill temper?
I learned, in time, to let heaven
go its mythy way, to never again
be a supplicant
of any single idea. For you and me
it's here and now from here on in.
Nothing can save us, nor do we wish
to be saved.
Let night come
with its austere grandeur,
ancient superstitions and fears.
It can do us no harm.
We'll put some music on,
open the curtains, let things darken
as they will.
From Here and Now, published by W.W. Norton. Copyright © 2011 by Stephen Dunn.
Where nothing can save us.
Nor do we wish to be saved.
Kerry Ellen,
Becca & Megan,
and Lisa Jean
in Rockport Harbor
of a Thursday
After coffee milk
And blueberry lemon
Slice
Next to white van
Topped with green canoe
Driver listening
To some audio novel
As I do to Dr No
by Percival Everett
It occurs to me
We are each
Appearing
As if from
Behind
What is in front
Nothing Being written
by the nothing that is
And the nothing
That is not — call it
Creatio ex nihilio
This:
At the sound of the bell
in the silent night,
I wake from my dream
in this dreamworld of ours.
Gazing at the reflection
of the moon in a clear pool,
I see, beyond my form, my real form.
—Kojisei (circa 1600)
That.
Chris at Tuesday Evening Conversation brought up revealed truth.
Perhaps, that which can’t be reached by ordinary thought or logical inference.
What is it?
Try this . . .
If Reality is a unified extension of Being, (or vice versa) and if what is whole is the background Source of What Is, do things emerge out into appearance as surprising isomorphic realizations of already inter-existing relational phenomena whose form and formlessness blink on-and-off, in-and-out, throughout time and space, dimensions and imagination revealing Itself by means of Attention and/or Ritual Faith?
Theologians have their word, transubstantiation. One thing becomes another thing even as appearance seems to indicate it is what it was, and (let’s call it) faith seems to hold that it is now what it really is.
“Hocus Pocus” is a diminutive phrase coming from “Hoc est enim corpus meum,” the words traditionally used at the consecration in Catholic liturgy. One level of reasoning, however incomprehensible, is that bread is no longer bread, wine no longer wine, but, now, body and blood of Jesus the Christ. This contention, patently absurd on its surface, haunts the imagination of nonduality and non-separative wholeness of being.
Perhaps, in effect, the reality of transubstantiation is not really about change, but rather, about pointing to the very nature/fact of what something is.
We acknowledge ordinary temporal and spatial change. Winter becomes spring. Bare trees flower. Youthful bodies become aged bodies.
But what of non-temporal and non-spatial metamorphosis? “Form is emptiness, emptiness form.” The Heart Sutra also claims there is “no old age and death and also no extinction of them.”
Night becomes day, day becomes night. Things change, we say.
Woodpecker dismantles tree trunk. Dozens of cars occupy the same space only seconds apart. The 18 year old who rebounded and jump shot is now the 80 year old watching the Warriors end their season with bad shooting losing to the Kings with Klay Thompson 0 for 10 and scoreless in defeat.
But let's re-translate plus ça change, plus c'est la même chose, an epigram by Jean-Baptiste Alphonse Karr in the January 1849 issue of his journal Les Guêpes (“The Wasps”).(wiktionary) -- usually translated "the more things change, the more they stay the same"
Let's put forward this translation: "The more a thing changes, the more it becomes itself."
Hundreds of thoughts and emotions occupy the same physical emotional intellectual space only milliseconds appending in tandem.
Cats are hungry and watchful at same time. Dog stares and pees at same time. What we call (in ignorant appellation) human and divine, matter and form, one and many, this and that, mine and yours — are separative words for one reality done distinct and believed to be different.
Which brings me back to transubstantiation. Our personal preference hubris makes of one two. (See e.e. cumming’s poem.) Still, I am confounded as to how singularity, morphic resonance, and quantum entanglement figure with the notion that each thing is each thing — and yet each thing is part of and belongs to Itself-as-Itself, one thing as another, another as one thing.
Separation is a great excuse for war, injustice, crime, and punishment.
Metaphors abound. Is “the body of Christ” a metaphor for what is whole, entire, without beginning or end, eternal (no time), infinite (without boundary) and non-imaginal (without an image)?
Our imagination creates worlds. God’s, we say, created this world. (Explain that to someone sitting in a cafe with a New York Times.)
Let Wallace Stevens have his stanza:
She says, “I am content when wakened birds,Before they fly, test the realityOf misty fields, by their sweet questionings;But when the birds are gone, and their warm fieldsReturn no more, where, then, is paradise?”
(From poem, Sunday Morning, by Wallace Stevens)
The mystic looks without discrimination.
Mystics see what is there to be seen.
Is that awkward word "transubstantiation" a finger pointing to what is, being, revealed?
Do I think
There’s anything
After death?
I won’t know
So why
Guess.
Lights out
Fire ashes
Scattered
If I owe you
Five bucks
Check coin can
We dwell from day to day. *
Word is brought back about a gathering at Camden Opera House for Dean J. this afternoon.
Images and music, videos of his singing opera pieces, incidences of his theatre work, stories by those who knew him. It was lovely, I'm told.
What is it about those who sing? Even if, when asked, say nothing about the religious implications of their song?
I suspect the very act of song is value dispersed and dispensed throughout, over, and within those surrounding that which is sung.
Dean was an aspergent.
Earlier the contemplative nuns from Neumz set out this Missa--Coommunio:
Cantáte Dómino, allelúia:
Sing to the Lord, alleluia:
cantáte Dómino, benedícite nomen ejus:
sing to the Lord and bless his name:bene nuntiáte de die in diem salutáre ejus,
Announce his salvation from day to day,allelúia, allelúia.
alleluia, alleluia.
Had they sung it at his memorial, he'd nod his head at their art.
Woodpecker telephones
from tree
It rings and rings
through morning light
brrdrrdrr brrdrrdrr brrdrrdrr
Does not go
to answering machine
No one home
No one
wishes to pickup
Song
God give you pardon from gratitude
and other mild forms of servitude—
and make peace for all of us
with what is easy.
(—poem by Robert Creeley, {1926-2005} p.186, The Collected Poems of Robert Creeley, 2008; originally in For Love, Poems 1950-1960)
After last night’s (wonderful) conversation I’m beginning to think it will resemble something like
"e contrario-poetica-cogitatio" (ie, on the contrary-poetic-thought) —or, as the acronym of the Latin
"e contrario-poetica-cogitatio" would look like “ecpc” — (phonetically: easy-peasy).
In 1971 this date was Easter.
Outside NYU chapel in Greenwich Village a street person smiled from a small group on their way back to Brooklyn -- and then, fewer, on to highway west.
It was spring.
Bend down and there it is:
No need to wrest it from others.
With the Way in complete agreement,
The mere touch of a hand is spring:
The way we come upon blooming flowers,
The way we see the year renew itself.
What comes this way will stay;
What is gotten by force will drain away.
A secluded person on an empty mountain,
While rain falls, picks some blades of duckweed.
Freely feeling the flash of dawn:
Leisurely, within the celestial balance.
–Ssu-k’ung T’u (837-908)
Life together.
Curious, isn't it?
It's less a promise than a fact.
That's what life is -- even when seeming separation tries to convince the opposite.
What seems to be is no substitute for the depth of what is.
rain again
sitting alone
dusk lowering
cracked open
sunflower shells
on wood walk
Trying to see.
Where would I go?
Anywhere, everywhere, is a teacher pointing to something worth considering, a deepening of the dharma, a telling of the gospel, a recitation of torah, a poetry of creativity, one final glimpse of a vanishing cosmos whispering sweet melody through empty space.
How amazing, how amazing!
Hard to comprehend that
Nonsentient beings expound Dharma.
It simply cannot be heard with the ear,
But when sound is heard with the eye,
Then it is understood.—Tung-shan (807-869)
Whoosh of cars passing along Barnestown Road.
In the dream two dinghies swept under waterfront (my childhood church?) are suddenly gone as I try to figure how to get them up and out to be used again.
Then they’re not there. My socks wet and torn in the grisly bottom of receding water trying to avoid shards of iron, glass, and ragged stone now exposed.
There’s no floating away. No air pump to inflate the no longer there green edged inflatable.
The childhood wooden church was torn down leaving demolition site between 61st and 62nd street just up from Bay Parkway. I’d spent many hours in silence in that creaky snap-settling building after shutting it down evenings after working answering door and phones in rectory during school years.
The red candle in sanctuary.
The bicycle ride home in the dark along 21st avenue.
The smell of Lima beans from Nana’s stove lingering up basement stairs.
too visible
I lose interest
looking up names
I've known
everyone wants
to be known
it's the ones
not found
instanding
near, undetected
I’m nearly ready
To die
All I have
To do
Is pick up
Pile of
Laundry from
Behind door
Clear off
Desk in room
Where no
Poems litter
Old pens
Dried ink in
Dusty cans
Pistachio shells
Vacant abandoned
Behind unread book
Body checking
Out going off
Across road
Where crumpled
Debris in ditch
Unpicked
By house with
No letterbox
With back to sun
dooryard sumie strokes
high trees on gravel-dirt
don't look at god
look at what god is
looking at
Someone said there will be an eclipse of the sun.
I wonder if it’s ok not to care…
Wonder is good.
Math is not my strong suit.
Hardly anything adds up.
Here's e e cummings:
one's not half two. It's two are halves of one:
one's not half two. It's two are halves of one:
which halves reintegrating,shall occur
no death and any quantity;but than
all numerable mosts the actual more
minds ignorant of stern miraculous
this every truth-beware of heartless them
(given the scalpel,they dissect a kiss;
or,sold the reason,they undream a dream)
one is the song which fiends and angels sing:
all murdering lies by mortals told make two.
Let liars wilt,repaying life they're loaned;
we(by a gift called dying born)must grow
deep in dark least ourselves remembering
love only rides his year.
All lose,whole find
(Poem by e.e.cummings)
Last line cheers.
Lose it all, find the whole. Lose all, find whole. When everybody loses, the whole is found.
In prison today, gelassenheit.
A good word.